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March 23, 2007 at 11:12 pm (Emo)

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And it ticks plus tocks

February 24, 2007 at 2:20 am (Random)

CNY period. Just normal. Any other day to me.
Happy. Because I get to meet up with my dear loggies.
Unhappy. Because I pangsehed my brothers and mum. Feel bad about it but it’s already over.
Crazy. Singing can be crazy.
Love. Seven months. And still going on, strong? Haha. Still in love.
Bored. Just like everyday.
Busy. Watching a lot of videos! And downloading! I can be supplier already. Haha I should start charging people already.
Cheers, people, be happy.

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there are things that others shouldn’t know

February 8, 2007 at 12:48 am (Emo)

Things doesn’t seem to be improving. My dad seems to be as irresponsible as ever, he doesn’t seem to care much about us either. I was sick, but so what. Other than calling me a lot of times (okay, that’s a display of concern I know) and rushing home to see how I was (that’s under my mum’s ‘orders’ lol), when I wanted to see a doctor he didn’t even offer to drive me and my mum there, much less offer to pay.

Money is the root of all evil, no?

I don’t know. My father’s problems all seem to relate to money. Or his lack thereof, I declare. His irresponsibility adds on. His family? I can only say, I’m glad is HIS family. I certainly don’t really see them as MY family. My mum’s side, definitely. Okay, maybe that’s being unfair, some of his family members are nice too. However, all of them just 见死不救, perhaps only when we all starve to death will they realise that something is wrong and maybe still protect their brother. Little brother, nonetheless. My mum’s the youngest too, she had never faced such 委屈 in her life till she married my dad. It’s all meant to be a tragedy. Can you believe it? Married for more than 18 years, that’s fucking long, and he had NEVER given any allowance to my mum. Until recently, when he needed her help. To buy a car under her name because his name is too tarnished, with the bad debts and all. What the fuck. And now what he did was to delay the payment and my mum has to pay for him because it’s under her name. Asshole. This shouldn’t be the way a daughter sees her father, unfortunately, it is, for me. I’ve never really regarded him as my father since I understood what he did. At a point of time, I suspect he even had an affair with some married woman.
What I don’t understand was, how could a person be so irresponsible and feel nothing? No emotions at all? After all, it was love at first that brought them together, no? Even though they might not have love anymore, I can see my mum standing tall and struggling to keep us alive by working part time. She’s the one paying the bills, she’s the one bringing home food, she’s the one we see when we reach home, she’s the one who has done so much for us, because she’s our mother. I’m starting to tear, that’s a bad sign, I suppose.
Things were well, till my father got addicted to gambling. AND THE FUCKING CREDIT CARDS. There was this period of time whereby a lot of people were owing the credit card companies loads of money? Congrats, my father was one of them. We had to move, downgrade to a four-room flat in order to pay his debts. Managed to make a neat profit AND GUESS WHAT. He took ALL the money AND GAMBLED IT AWAY. Leaving us with nothing. Literally. My mum, out of anger, cancelled their joint account. It was the right thing to do. There wasn’t much trust in them anymore, nothing to trust. My father is a man of words, and no actions. Typical 纸上谈兵 that kind of people.
I knew things were getting from bad to worse, when he had no money and I even had to pay my school fees myself. In secondary school. So glad that my school fees are paid through his CPF now, else I’m dead meat. I really really pity my mum. If it wasn’t for the fact that she only has a family member here, and she doesn’t have much savings, she would have divorced him, or maybe it’s for our future, to complete our education, at least, in Singapore.
My mother is a great figure. I love her. (:
Her birthday’s coming, I hope I’ll be able to get her something decent.
I’ve too much rantings. It can never be finished in a post. Plus, I’m tired. And facing emotional drain. Continue next time. Till then, take care.

OH BTW, I think that’s why my mum is kind of against me having a boyfriend at this age. HAIS. ):

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The Final Goodbye

January 29, 2007 at 1:27 am (Uncategorized)

for now. Might be changing url or what, I’ve not yet decided. Will be sometime before I blog again, even in here. Take care everyone.

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January 25, 2007 at 4:42 pm (Ramblings -)

Having my French test later on but haven’t really studied at all! Completely not in the studying mood, except for the mood to study macroeconomics. So weird. Haha. Anyway super lethargic now I’ve no idea. And I didn’t manage to attend the POA lecture this morning! Overslept. ): And in my opinion, if I’m going to be late for more than 20 minutes, especially lecture, might as well don’t attend because it is very rude to interrupt lectures. Not tutorials though because the attendance is more important – I don’t want to be debarred from exams.

Yesterday’s presentation was alright. At least, I think I did my part not bad, considering the little time I had. The website seemed to have impressed our tutor but overall it was a sucky presentation because it was very very obvious the powerpoint slides were done very last minute and had too many slides, not forgetting that quite a number of slides were irrelevant. Besides that, technical problems occurred and we did not have a back up plan (aka, another laptop). Hence I’ll be glad if we can actually get a B- for this project. Whatever. And anyway, FABM exam might be held at SIM, for whatever reason. -.-”

Exams are so near. Let’s all buck up. (: Jiayoujiayoujiayou! Hehehe.
I’m looking forward to our outing! ;D HUIYING, FASTER DO SOMETHING LAH.

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Find this related to my previous post. Why are the leaders all so sucky?

January 23, 2007 at 2:30 pm (⌡Rated.Retarded⌠)


The organs of the body were having a meeting, trying to decide who was in charge. Each organ took a turn to
speak up:

Brain: I should be in charge because I run all body functions.

Blood: I should be in charge because I circulate oxygen for the brain.

Stomach: I should be in charge because I process food to the brain.

Legs: I should be in charge because I take the brain where it wants to go.

Eyes: I should be in charge because I let the brain see where it’s going.

Asshole: I should be in charge because I get rid of your waste.

All the other parts laughed so hard and this made the asshole very mad.

To prove his point, the asshole immediately slammed tightly closed and stayed that way for 6 days, refusing to rid the body of any waste whatsoever.

Day 1 – Brain got a terrible headache and cried out for relief
Day 2 – Stomach got bloated and began to ache terribly
Day 3 – Legs got
cramps and became unstable
Day 4 – Eyes became watery and vision became blurred
Day 5 – Blood became toxic and poisoned the body
Day 6 -The other organs agreed to let the asshole be in charge.


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January 23, 2007 at 2:06 pm (Pissed)

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I apologise

January 19, 2007 at 1:23 am (Ramblings -)

for the lack of updates. Several reasons:
1. Lazy (most important)
2. Tired (working!)
3. Lack of topics (my life is super boring now)

And speaking of that, NP Open House. I’m not involved. Hahaha.
Alright, I’m very tired. Next week French test already, HAIS.
This month work more than last month, YAY. I need mooooolah. (x

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Laugh IS good!

January 16, 2007 at 12:50 am (Ramblings -)

Work today was rather havoc, for me, at least. Manager was in a sparkling mood! Hahahaha. (: I talked and talked and asked a lot of questions and he answered all, despite giving me a weird expression. Lol. And we finished our closing duties damn early today so we actually have plenty of time to sit down, eat and talk. Hehehe. Supposed to finish at 11pm lah…. Hehehe. And manager seems a little amazed that I can laugh, like, a lot. Eat can laugh, talk can laugh, never do anything also can laugh. Haha. What’s wrong lor. Anyway, today is a high day.
Plus bstats results was not bad. (: (:
Elearning tmr, work 4 hours, go relax~ Hehe.

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